Sooner or Later

Sooner or later....this little girl will be coming home. Sooner or later? Timing...timing is everything; timing is nothing in the adoption world in Vietnam. There is no rhyme or reason sometimes as to when paperwork is processed & when it sits. I think God made a woman to wait 9 months for her baby...no more, no less....timing...It's been 1 1/2 years since we started our adoption process. We truly have no idea when we may travel. I feel like I need to be ready physically for sooner & mentally for later. But, what if it's sooner & I'm not ready? Timing is everything...unpredictable is life. I can be ready to go in a week if I have to...this I must keep reminding myself of...I'm a little worried about our boys. This has been such a "when it happens" kind of thing that I truly think they believe this little girl is a fantasy. A "when Caleigh comes home"...until they see her home, I guess the reality will never be...I worry about leaving them on short notice. I worry about talking about it too much then having it drag out some more & then they're "but you said she was coming soon"! Eeee Gads! If you've been able to follow my rambling, congrats! Serenity Now! Serenity Now!